My soul finds rest in being alone?

Not quite-"My soul finds rest in God alone" according to Psalm 62 and I must agree with the Palmist. 


Yesterday I spent the day, the whole day, alone. It was interesting; it almost seemed like an experiment. Let's test and see how Caitlin handles herself when she is not surround by others. Weird, right?
I guess I should explain why I was alone. The semester is over and the housemates are gone. One studying abroad in Spain, one interning up in Northern Virginia, two are at chapter camp for IV, and the other is at the beach. I should admit I wasn't completely alone- there was one more housemate still in the house but she tends to keep to herself anyways so I might as well have had the whole house to myself. 
I am also currently without a car which prevents me from going home whenever I feel like it.


So I had a whole day and whole house to myself-have I made that clear? I just want to get that across because, well, what would you do?


Well, I spent the day cleaning. I vacuumed, mopped, scrubbed, dusted - the works! But I actually enjoy cleaning, so it was fun! ha strange, I know. Cleaning does not take all day though, so I was left with 8 hours. What's a girl to do?I have done all I can. I felt restless. I needed to do something. So I made dinner and watched 3 movies- Little Rascals, Roman Holiday, and An American in Paris. Yeah, that's a lot of movies for one sitting. I still couldn't shake the restlessness. So I sat and just thought. I had spent plenty of time thinking about myself- my wants, needs, and desires. But I had not really thought about myself- who am I? who do people think I am?
I know I am an ESFJ according to Myers-Briggs personality test, and I know my love language is quality time. 


But who does the Creator of the universe say I am? Who am I to Him?
I know, I know- I'm His daughter, His beautiful creation, His fill-in-the-blank-christianese.-blahblahblah.
So I turned off the movies, put up my dishes, lit a candle and pulled out my journal and pen. I wrote. Part confession, part praise, part prayer, part non-sense, part truth.
I know we are created for community and that life requires people, but last night was time well spent alone. If others had been around, I doubt that I would have experienced such an intimate outpouring of my soul. We need other people in our life with out a doubt, but we also require those moments of isolation where we deal with who we really are and where we find the Lord's direction in life.


My heart kept going back to Psalm 62
1 My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. 2 He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken. 3 How long will you assault a man? Would all of you throw him down-- this leaning wall, this tottering fence? 4 They fully intend to topple him from his lofty place; they take delight in lies. With their mouths they bless, but in their hearts they curse."Selah" 5 Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. 6 He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. 7 My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. 8 Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him,for God is our refuge. "Selah" 9 Lowborn men are but a breath, the highborn are but a lie; if weighed on a balance, they are nothing; together they are only a breath. 10 Do not trust in extortion or take pride in stolen goods; though your riches increase, do not set your heart on them. 11 One thing God has spoken, two things have I heard: that you, O God, are strong, 12and that you, O Lord, are loving. Surely you will reward each person according to what he has done.


I think I kept going back to it because after such an overwhelming and exhausting semester, I needed rest in all areas of my life. The kind of rest that brings peace of mind as well soothing sleep and restoration of the spirit. That is the kind of rest the Lord provides!Thank God! 

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