It all starts here.
Currently, I am senior suffering from the greatest of CTD’s (College transmitted diseases)Senioritis; the inflammation of being a senior.
But really, it is so much more and it is real. As foolish as it is, I find myself with a dangerous lack of motivation which makes me want to fast forward to graduation: a time when deadlines, grades and stress seem to disappear. This is contrasted with intense feeling of nostalgia that grabs at every instant that has the potential of being a “last”. I don’t consider myself an especially nostalgic person, but I can’t help but find myself savoring everything more than usual. Especially the mundane and ordinary things. I think that is because that is what stick with me the most; walking to the quad for class, running into familiar faces in TDU, even trying to be the first one in the bathroom in the morning! Isn't it strange? Or is it not?
Either case, it seems somewhat silly, but it is where I am for now.
I think it stems from the fact that I have so much to look forward to after graduation. Graduation, while it seems like an event to signify the culmination of academic efforts, it is just the first stepping stone for me. I have the privilege of interning with New York City Urban Project (NYCUP) this summer to work on their LOGOFF campaign (LOcal, Green, Organic, Fair trade, and Free of slave labor). After that, I am planning on moving out to Denver Colorado with two friends. Big things, even bigger moves!
So basically, graduation signifies when I take my first step in to an incredibly unpredictable and highly transitional season of my life. I don’t want to wish away the semester. I want to be as present as I can be and take advantage of all that is left because there is so much here to love and appreciate. And as much as I hate to admit, even classes are still worth enjoying.
So follow me through my triumphs and my surrenders. This will be an adventure for sure.
